darn farking sad lor feel lk crying but i can"t i have told myself b4 not to cry le so i will try my best not to feel soooooo guilty towards my mom don wanna lie to her but no choice actually even if i always say bad things about her but in my heart i love her alot don wanna to lose her don noe how to live without her beside me to support me so sad i write until tears wan drop le la argh....
haiss i am sorri linming i noe tat this feel days i have been giving u attitude but yet i don noe y i am sorri i hate myself for tat btw thanx for the present u give me juz now thanx alot i realli don noe is all this fated can say tat i realli don noe wat is my feeling towards him le i got so mixed up wif my feeling le don even noe wat to do how much i hope tat i don need to care so much i noe i am veri bad saying all those things but i have to i realli don noe wat is my feeling towards him le :""(( i am truly sorri i don noe have i hurt u anot i noe saying sorri will not cure everything hope u can understand i does have moodswing often i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i don noe wat could i do to make u feel better wat i can do is juz to say sorri am i useless and yes i am!!! i noe u love me alot but do u noe sometimes yr love makes me so guilty could u pls don treat me so nice i hate it i feel so guilty i don wan ...... do u noe sometimes i prefer to be freedom i don wanna any stress but i chose to be wif u cause i have truly fall in love wif u .... one thing tat do u noe is yr attitude makes me darm farking lor i hate to say all this but in the end i chose to say cause i don think i should hide it from u juz wanna say sorri if i does hurts u but one thing i can promise tat i will not say B.....K so easily de useless there is a need to okie phew feel so gd after saying out all haiss actually hor i feel lk meeting tat guy who say he wanna to noe me but too bad lor don noe his hp no and his add haiss as wat winnie say la if we are fated we will get to noe each other one day de hope to be friend wif u one day....eh hey linming arhx don keep the wrong idea hor there is nth bewteen us juz wanna noe him and be friend onli okie haiss i shall stop all my crap here le i think by now u all have fallen alsleep le ba keke but nvm la i noe it is boring but i am happi tat u guys have read it......yea!!!!!!!!! winnie and min u both are 4ever my best bugs de and of cause christine la okie cya bye bye
